Time to make time

Why do we get so busy ? So busy we do not make that call to family members or friends that we keep putting off for the right moment. I always think I will make that call from the car on the way into work or in between stops, after work, after dinner, after this show, after I get the house cleaned, the car cleaned (if you have rode in my car you know that does not happen very often !!) . How many cards have I written and never mailed? (I have an envelope of stamps I have tore off of cards I never mailed)  How many times do we think of someone and think I need to tell her/him that and let that moment pass ? I am bad about calls, cards, emails...but I have a rule concerning texting and facebook posts. If I feel something, have a thought I need to share, a compliment, a prayer for someone, sometimes it just a feeling... I text or facebook that person =) Rhett has not always been understanding of my need to do this !! He has learned to tolerate my texting and facebooking over the last year. He has given his blessing on this need of mine and I appreciate him doing so.
Today I got a call from my step-father. My Mom has been sick and to the Dr. 2 times. She was told she has pneumonia, received a shot and some meds sent home to get better. When we talk on the phone it is not for more than 3 minutes because she cannot talk without coughing. Yesterday I told her she needed to go back and tell them she needed to stay because she was not getting better. I can still hear his shaky voice and I knew it was not a social call. He said  " I am sorry to have to use this word but they think she has cancer."....... I felt like someone just took my skip out of my step, the wind from my sails. What ?? Seriously ? My afternoon has been spent praying, crying, talking to my sisters and texts from friends. My Mom just retired !! She has worked my lifetime. For years she worked jobs that many men could not work. She outworked men half her age. She worked 2, 3 jobs at a time. She is a worker =) It is hard to see her suffer and to be weak. It is not the Momma I know. I have these pestering feelings of guilt. Why have I not been better at making calls, why do I not visit more? My Mom does not do facebook, texting... but that should not be my excuse...  No matter what the results we get from her tests tomorrow, I have already decided that I will make phone calls, will send the letters, will visit more. I will not be too busy =) There is never a better moment, the house will never be clean enough, there will always be another movie to watch, toilet to clean, cookie to burn, load of laundry to do...and yes they must be done..but those things do not make memories.

Me and my Momma =)