Roadblocks not allowed... Detours only

Today I had an MRI... Just a follow up from September of last year. The last few days as I have made arrangements to make it to my appointment my mind wandered to that week in September  leading up to my visit to ICU. You know how you are going on in life... everything is good.. Then bam !! Yep !! I had a roadblock......  Life was good. I had successfully lost my weight and was living a healthy lifestyle.. I was eating good, I was working out like a mad woman... I was doing Insanity and loving it. I was almost to my goal weight and felt like I could do anything.... BAM. I lost my energy. I didn't make it to the last 2 weeks of the Insanity workout that I had going with 3 other awesome ladies... When you get up at 4 am to do Insanity.. You are kinda "insane" =)  .. The 4th week in Sept I was not feeling my best. I had lunch with Aaron and Ash and he kept telling me he thought I was having a stroke because I was talking funny. I ended up at the Dr.'s office and so thankful I made it there that day. I have never had a headache like I did that day. I could not get my words out. As soon as they took my blood pressure panic was in the air !!! I heard the nurse say "Joe, it is at 300 and still going". I have never had bp problems and had no idea how bad that really was at the moment. I just knew that with the amount of pain I was in and the scrambling to call Rhett, to turn the lights out and to have the ambulance on the way I was not doing so well. My bp was somewhere around 300 over 180. Craziness !!! My first ride in an ambulance.. Woot Woot =)
Poor Rhett !! He was not sure he was going to make it to the hospital to see me ... he beat me there and he never left my side. He kept telling me I was getting better when really no one knew what was going on. It took hours to get my bp down. I kept asking him to tell me if I was dying because I wanted to know. They kept letting people in to see me and I knew they didn't let people come in like that in ICU .....AND my family drove from KS and OK through the night....AND my boss came home from a hunting trip that he had just left for that morning....So I just knew Rhett was hiding something from me. At one time my kids and some of their friends were in there and 2 of them were sniffling.. I remember asking Rhett "are you SURE I am going to make it?" It wasn't until days later I found out they were just suffering from allergies =)  I made it through the night and they got everything under control and really didn't have any answers to our questions...just to follow up for more testing. The next day I was released.. And guess what was scheduled for that day ?? Burgundy Ball =) Yep !! After many conversations about why we should and should not go... we went. Where would I be safer... at home with no medical help for a few miles OR Burgundy Ball... surrounded with nurses and Dr.'s ??  =) I did get some "what in the world are you doing here" from some of the nurses that were in ICU with me and others that had heard about my visit. Seriously, I couldn't pass up hearing Henry Winkler speak =) 
We all have these things happen to us throughout our lives that we do not expect, that we are not prepared for. Some of us have more than others. How we handle them is up to us. We can say we ran into a roadblock and there is no going forward OR we can decide that the problem we are facing is just a detour. 

A detour is a deviation from a direct course of action

I am on a detour . My original road would have taken me to my goal weight and being able to continue working out and becoming healthier and stronger without any hospital stays and new medications. My detour has given me frustration, depression, continually checking bp, taking medicine, going to the gym and leaving crying, to now be feeling better, on my 4th week of P90X with 2 awesome girlfriends at 5:30 a.m., to a follow up MRI to make sure that the spot on my brain from my small stroke has not changed. ...My detour has taught me many things !!! ~God answers prayers~Life is precious~ My most precious things are NOT things~I need to be thankful for the big and little things~ I am soooooo blessed.  Being joyful is good for your health.
If you run into a roadblock remember it is up to you to make it a detour. On our detours (I know I will have many more detours throughout my life) my prayer is that you will be able to learn, grow, and love the life you have through the good and bad. Woot Woot =)


                                                    Here is our Burgundy Ball picture =)

I'm a blogger ?

I am starting a new journey. Yep, a blogger. Not because it is the "in thing to do", or because I feel like I need to keep up with all my successful blogger friends. Nope !! It is so I can say "who says I can't". First, let me get some housekeeping things out of the way. I am a terrible speller and thankful to see that spell check up there (and you will notice that I even spelled my blog title wrong !!! ). I write like I speak, so you may grit your teeth if that bothers you. I also tend to put a lot...yes a lot of ..... (dots), =) (smiles), !!!!! (exclamation points), and I say WOOT WOOT a lot. If you can handle that then we are going to get along just fine. .....=) =) Woot Woot !!!

How and why is my blog called "Who says I can't"?...... Growing up I never knew I could do anything I put my mind too. I did not realize this until I was in my late 30"s - early 40's. I know, that is sad. I just didn't know. I was so full of self doubt. That doubt kept me from soooo many things. Friendships, job opportunities, school opportunities, activities. An example.... I didn't dare wear anything that would make me stand out in an odd way. I love to see kids that are full of self-confidence and are able to be themselves. It may be some wild hair style, an outfit that does not match in color. I admire that in a teenager that is surrounded with peer pressure and that silly thinking that we need to all match and fit in. I also didn't try out for plays, did not get involved in activities. I did not push myself. I did not want to fail. Failure is what I expected. Jump to my late 30's, early 40's. I decided that at 40 I should be in control of who I am. I had a lot of weight to lose  !!! Where I had let my self go to was not pretty !! It was sad ...very sad. I made up my mind that I was going to change my body and in the process I made changes to my way of thinking. Along the weight loss journey I discovered that I AM CAPABLE of ANYTHING that I put my mind too. I am NOT a failure.
 What a journey it has been. I still have doubt, I still have fears, I am far from where I need to be.....but I am not stuck in that feeling of failure, of self doubt and I have to say it is a great place to be. =) Woot Woot !!